Freak of Nature

so its been a while

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 21:30:58 GMT

So im here again back at my moms house after my vancouver living experience. And what have i learned........... Stay out of houses with infestation problems. This would seem obvious to most but truly until youve lived in a place like that for 8 months you really dont know. So playing new pokemon and am highly addicted and yes im a horrid pokewhore and am breeding everything. ( mostly evee's right now but fixing that once i get a magmar. So i can hatch eggs faster.

But things are going well in life sorting out the next step of jobs and such again as im better pretty much now ( was sick ) but yeah. oh yeah ps kole GET POKEMON OMG OMG OMG new one so good >.>

Im a addict but you love me
^_^ iggy

Wed, 04 Jun 2008 17:34:43 GMT

i found the song which i guess best explains me right now

Infected Mushroom - Becoming Insane
by Infected Mushroom

Infected Mushroom - Becoming Insage

No me acuerdo lo que paso
Ni me di cuenta ni que me pico
Todo da vueltas como un carrusel
Locura recurre todita mi piel

Wake me up before I change again
Remind me the story that I won´t get insane
Tell me why it´s always the same
Explain me the reason why I´m so much in pain

Before I change again...
Remind me the story that I won't get insane
Before I change again...
Remind me the story that I won't get insane

Insane, Insane, Insane, Insane,Insane, I'm Becoming Insane!!!

Yeah i snapped :D

There will be blood :P

and not mine :D

Bah

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 01:16:27 GMT

Im tired of how you do this to me everytime, flirt with me make me feel like youve let me back into your life just to turn and treat me like im the pleauge five minutes later when the next cute guy walks in the room. I hate how it kills me and cuts me up everytime you touch another guy. And when i find you on the floor rolling around with them like some kind of dog in heat you look me up in the eye with a hurt look.......

and you phone me telling me how you want to sleep with such and such and how you made out with whats his name........

No wonder i used to drink at raves

But so is my lot in life

I am medic hear me bandage

HEHEHEE

Sun, 09 Sep 2007 12:39:28 GMT

Video games dont effect kids. If Packman effected kids we would be running around in darkened rooms eating magic pills listeningto loud, repetitive, electronic music

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 00:06:37 GMT

ok im happy dont worry had a nice sleep and evertything is good again
I is loveds her and yeah so
:P

Talk to you all later
Peace

pain

Sun, 17 Jun 2007 13:55:15 GMT

we each deal with pain, in each our own way,
some abuse drugs, or drink it away
some of us see above and know that this life is not ours
they know they must live on because of the powers.
The powers that be the power that rule
To deny to not believe is to be a fool.

Some of us cannot get past this torturous pain
even though we try hard
we only hold this torch in vein

we cut to get past ,
we cut to see ,
we cut so that we can let others live free

We walk the strings of fate touching many lives,
Never meant to stay we are just criticized.

Those we try to stay with, those we try to love
They tear us apart, steal the wings from above

We shall live on and they shall never know
love to you all for you know where i go

waves

Wed, 06 Jun 2007 16:32:26 GMT

"The only life I know
I don't know how to live otherwise...
It seems to selfish to speak up
And say "what about me?
I hurt to...please help me..."
When there are so many others out there who hurt more,
Or can't internalize it like I can,
I can hold it in very well...
I'm good at that,
I only break down on occasion, And even then no one really knows it.
Why can't it be sufficient to live like that?
It's easy that way,
I hate putting myself fisrt...
It seems selfish."

Wed, 02 May 2007 01:48:20 GMT

slit my wrists and call me strong after this day i will be gone

ok i know blue moon your telling me

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 07:42:06 GMT

I know how rare it is that i post but seeing as some ppl actually have read my journal recently and give a shit thought id post again. * waits for gasps and screams*

went to the job interview this morning. Thought it was supposed to be for taking care of a small network and some putting together of circiuts and such when the comps were not having a issue. But it wasnt it was just for putting there circiuts together a meaningless repetative job in where you did nothing but put them together and for low pay so me thinks ill look elsewhere for work but *shrugs* it happens.

Lets see its like less then 5 daysw ( technically its 24 min till 4 days till the rave ZOMG
im a wee bit excited its been a while since ive had a good rave and since ( as i said in my last post) ive cleared my head a bit im not going to have to deal with the drama which sometimes comes with raves. But YAY <(^_^)>

And now for some bad news im sorry my friends i gave into the dark side of the force....... 2 days ago i bought.......... ANIMAL CROSSING FOR THE DS........ Im so sorry ppl ive forsken my four gaming fathers and shamed my lineage.... if there is anyway you can forgive me ( or give me your friends code so i can see your town ) it would be greatly appreciated.

Well time to go play my new addiction. Im suprised by how stupid it is, you just want to keep playing to see if it gets alot better or if its just going to stay that simple. >_<

well later ppl

AND PPL FREAKING CALL ME no one calls anymore :( * stares at jen and beth then goes and climbs a tree steals wifi connection and plays animal crossing online*

Later
Iggy

its been a while

Mon, 12 Feb 2007 09:02:05 GMT

Well this is my first post of 2007 and not emo either

ANYWAYS alots been going on solved problems with a few ppl and sorted things out in my head a bit ( further detail if you want it will need to be asked personally) Visited vancouver to see kayla and a few others and twas nice and interesting. Some things happened over there during my stay which made me relise that i can be happy on my own, which i knew but had never put into practice. But just so we all note i do like being with others more :P.

THE RAVE IS IN 6 days now OMG >_<
SO AWSOME first rave for me in a while. ANYWAYS its been decided im going to all the raves that are currently on rave victoria and its going to be awsome.

Oh and in serious news i was laid off from cmaeon. Shortage of work and just :S lets leave it at it sucks being a jr. But on another note i have a job interview in 9 hours so i had better be getting some sleep.

Ppl sorry ive been hiding away from you all lately i needed to get my head straight :S

PPl im currently missing
Beth
Jen
Kelc

I dunno :S im outs before this turns emo

Rant

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 22:01:16 GMT

You ever come to a point in the road where you know what you want but you cant have it..... I know what i want right now well sorta. I want to date beth if i could. She is currently going out with sketch ( who claims to be gay) Claims to, Recently i wonder, i mean seriously he starts making out with jesse who inturn starts biting and scratching and full out just doing what horny ppl do....... Ok i understand dont really care. But before this he wouldnt let me take beth out for dinner but he wouldnt hear of it thought i was going to steal her away or something wouldnt even let me near her. Then jesse comes around and he's all over her, then asks beth later if it was alright if jesse came over and stayed with him, and that it was alright if she did stuff with me. A) THAT GOES OFF MY SCALE OF FUCKING HYPOCRITICAL BASTARDS. dont be a hipocrit around me does nothing but make me pissed off. Then beth gets upset because of this. Understandably so because WTF. So beth hides it goes into the washroom and cries her eyes out then hides her face from me when she comes out, ( plz note i knew that something was wrong im not a dumbass ) walk with her back to our group at jhonney z's and im pissed by now grab him by the neck and drag him out of the group and tell him my mind. About how much he was hurting her how hypocritical he was being and just how much of a fucking dumbass he was being wishy washy, i told him to make a choice and stick with it. ( which in retrospect may have been the resason he's telling her not to see me much now but FUCK whatever).

Now that night goes on and we all go to there house because beth doesnt want to be alone because she will be upset and yeah. We all hang in beths room for about half hour and you can tell that its just heavy with mood and that ppl are kinda pissed off. Jesse and sketch go up to his room and i pass out cuddling with beth in her room. in morning find out that if sketch hadnt been so sick that jesse would have ( no matter what) screwed his brains out. I question if she didnt because fuck its jesse ( no offense but god damb keep your legs closed).

Now the snow and such knocked out there power so its the 29th and i havent talked to her since saturday. Get a email from her when she was at uvic that says sketch is pissed and that because of all this shit he doesnt want her seeing me much anymore. She wants to. That when me and her and him are hanging out that i should not touch her and cuddle her. She wants me to. So im stuck in this bs moment of i want to be with her like crazy but i dont know what to do because i go there i know he wont leave us alone meaning he's going to be pissed off unless im like as far away as humanly possible in opne room away from her.

And to top it all off looks like in febuary im moving out of my house ( which in general) is a good thing because fuck ive been there way to long and i need my own place. Now the question is do i want a roomate or not. What part of town. Can i afford it. If i want a roomate who do i ask. Do I ask Beth or any other of my friends do i say fuck it and not tell any of my ppl im leaving that area and just slip out and not say a word.

I think the whole ninja move would be better seeing as it would mean less bs. Less ppl whining and complaining and just :S..........

I know i want to move out i know i want to be happy... I know i want a significant other in my life. And from what im seeing now it looks like it could be beth, But alas right now i have no clue where me and beth will go. I dont know what to do.

I have officially come to that stand in point where i need to figure things out soon before i just go insane.

so Tonight jen might be trapped out around my place so she will probably end up reading this. All me lj ppl will read it and either be emo wonder or they are mentioned in this and i just dont know who i want in my life.

So alas i go into hiding again ppl.

Yeah come find me.

Bye

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 06:37:47 GMT

Iggy

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Mon, 30 Oct 2006 20:36:38 GMT

alot of shit has happened this weekend which i wish hadent but i cant take back time and i cant take back what happens with things beyond my control.

But sat Woke up with cuddling beth interesting time as that happens never. twas fun and made me so happy waking up with someone in my arms who cared about me.

Dog got put to sleep after 15 years he was put to sleep and just :( depressed about that. When i went partying i partied for my dog. In his memory atleaste. But went with beth to a rave after helkping sketch kill his party because it got too out of hand. Then after dancing and ending back up in beths bed with her cuddling me and sketch on the other side of her we all passed out
. In the morning though just :S. Woke up when sketch went to the washroom so me and beth cuddled ( i dont like doing pda's so i waited until he left because thought he was going upstairs to his room) Naw just bathroom so caught me kissing beth. Its noon at this time and im still dog tired. So hug beth and just relax then pull her ontop to cuddle and sketch starts crying silently ( not loudly but enough we could hear) and just :S so beth comforts him and hugs him and i know it was him caring about her alot. and just heart sank inside me :S. So someone suggests its time for me to go home i think it was beth but :S) But yeah i get dropped off and kiss her once before i go. sleep for a few hours then call her later Her and sketch had a conversation aparently and he's uncomfortable with me around there and kissing her and being close to her. But :S so im here now at work writing all this and all i have to say is i miss her so much it hurts. she is just so... it just feels right hanging with her and i just dont know anymore ive come to the decision women for me are like they are behind display cases. you can look but not touch and you can ask to see one up close and find out about them but its only for a temporary time. And that time is never long enough. when i think back its always been like that for me. So alas a wanderer ive always been and always shall and so far i wander alone. Found her lj as well but the link was on her da. Anyways i sit here with my dogs collar in my pocket. And remember last night where i looked around for someone to cuddle but relize ill never be able to talk to him tell him what worries me or have him just walk to me without me doing a thing and just know i need him there.

I lost my one true familiar Watson Gaverosh Valcore ******** .

But yeah doesnt matter ill just move on from where i am right now in my life. Like always dropping ppl and memories and just :S.

But yay another rave soon November Rain so ya

thats whats happened and i might post again who knows it happens but :S

RIP watson

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 03:35:36 GMT

edited by me and saying fuck it to the world thankyou

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 15:15:48 GMT

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Tue, 22 Nov 2005 20:11:25 GMT

well lifes interesting as usual all those ppl i thought gave a shit cared or loved me dont. so i dont care i give up ill stay single i wont hold on anymore and ill just live life as if i was alone which i am so tada.

well whatever bye ppl email me or msg me if you want
iggy

Sat, 19 Nov 2005 07:04:09 GMT

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Fri, 18 Nov 2005 04:23:26 GMT

YAY swimming tonight at oak bay rec should be fun :) get to meet up with pete and felicia and dee and whoever else shows up :P
*hugs* well lata ppl

iggy

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 23:25:30 GMT

You Are Scary

You even scare scary people sometimes!

How Scary Are You?

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 05:31:03 GMT

Well reading my old posts wow wa i ever angsty or just stuff leading up to what i am now either way meh this is my life. question for ppl who visit my journal is it wrong to chase hari chrishna's down the streete screaming after them?

meh anyways lata ppl
iggy

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 01:10:17 GMT

Rammstein - Feuer Frei! (English) Lyrics

Whoever knows pain becomes criticized
from the fire that burned up the skin
I throw a light in my face
a hot cry
open fire!

Bang bang

Whoever knows pain is raised
from the fire that burns in desire
a hard thrust (that gives off sparks) into her womb
a hot cry
open fire!

Bang bang
open fire!

Whoever knows pain is dangerous
from the fire that burns the soul
bang bang
the burned child is dangerous
with fire that separates from the life
a hot cry
bang bang
open fire!

Your happiness
is not my happiness
it is my misery

Bang bang
open fire!

finnaly a song that i understand and can relate to
enough said

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 04:47:10 GMT

ok here is my honest question

If you woke up and I was in bed with you, what would be your first thought and what would u be doing ? Post your reply,

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 02:23:06 GMT

Hurt and pain the feelings i have inside
Slicing and cutting, desires i must hide

The same old streets i travel everyday
My true loning will is for me to get away

Digging deep within defying the sorrow
i look for a reason to continue tommorow

alas there are none and me left in dread
those that care fear they will find me dead

blood stained floors and scars of no regret
i cut in one more time, my last i fret

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 07:20:15 GMT

it seems that my life's path has been laid out for me all that i will ever have in life as a constant are depression, apathy and techno.
Makes me wonder about some thigns in life is it truely worth trying to find that one person to be with for the rest of ur life or is it just as well to try to make ur self happy by secluding urself from relationships hide ur heart away and just work and go thru without companionship?

But then again there is only so much hand lotion in the world ;)

well ya i have new techno so im happy so i guess i shall talk to you all later.
kim coffee sometime? well lata
mmfwcl

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 08:36:03 GMT

Welcome to my little drama of a life well where to begin. Well i just got back from larp ( Live Action Role Play) if u dont know what that is then u are just going to have to ask me kuz it is fucking fun and i think kim would love it( p.s. kim plz phone me) anyways on with the telling well im depressed right now i know why and if u truely want to know u can ask me and depending on who u are i would be glad to tell u. Anyways since i last posted i am now going to cdi college im taking the network and internet security course. Pretty much they teach me everything about computer networking physically possible and then help me get into a job. Anyways well im going to las vegas from the 23rd of december to the 4th of janurary. my mom met some guy online then went and met him now shes going again and wants me to come along so i will. I have locked up all of my sharp knives well all my knives up because im going to be good and i am going to get thru this and not be depressed.

If u havent got sick of reading what i have put yet or have all together taken me off ur list because all i do is talk about my sad sorry life then to the maybe 2 that read this i thankyou and now onto the good stuff. I have gotten a few ppl presents um emma, pete, kim,kim,kim only one of which has lj and reads mine. well i cant think of anything else thats good so i leave u with this quote and im off to bed.

"I tear my heart open, i sold myself shy, my weekness is i care to much, and my scars remind me my past is real, I tear my heart open just to feal" PapaRoach - Scars